17.05.2013

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我搞不懂 我们到底怎么了
不懂 你的黑色幽默
为什么这样子?
我到了这个时候还是一样
我的脆弱 坚强 互相作战
还要时间 才能平衡
太多的情绪没适当的表情
想哭 来试探自己麻痹了没
想笑 来伪装掉下的眼泪
想大声 的呐喊
想问为什么 我不再是你的快乐
请原谅我 原谅我不成熟
原谅我 怀疑自己

时间过了 走了
在回忆的路上 时间变好慢
寂寞深得像海太让人害怕
一辈子有多少 的来不及 发现 已经 失去 最重要的东西
没有你以后 我灵魂失控
身边仿佛只是观众
也许我一直害怕有答案
我知道 不能再留住你
我也知道 曲终人该散了
原来诗跟离别 可以没有结尾

翻开我们的照片
过往的欢乐 是否褪色
怀疑你舍得
怎么开始忘了
再怎么美丽也只能是曾经
而回忆越是甜 越是伤人
想着哪一天 会有人代替 让我不再想念你

我们都回不去最初
拼命想挽回的从前
承诺说得那么铭心刻骨
却被时间扑了空
以为早已忘记 曾经和你的约定
以前的一句话 是我们 以后的伤口

我慌乱面对你转身离开
离开的时候 只听见沉默
我懂我也知道 你没有舍不得
我沉默 不代表我不痛
有些话总来不及 一直都藏在心底
就是开不了口
舍不得说

后来才发现 我和你  一条线 就能分两个世界
我这里一切都变了
我的世界早已经不是以前
你已不在里面
剩下的只是回忆
为什么你的身边 我的身边 不是同一边
如今我还在原地 你却走回你的记忆
你的背影 远得像雾了
却说不出 离开的原因
终于你身影 消失在 人海尽头
还是要告别

我努力假装现在过得很好
一个人 习惯一个人
孤独给我自由
终究会习惯 这种生活
也许时间是一种解药
谢谢你的美好 我绝对不会忘掉
我会在这里衷心的祝福你
不打扰 是我的温柔

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ah, this is something I started doing since I was form 2. back then I had only like 20 songs until when Chinese Society decided to use music as their theme for their 2013 collected works. I went through all the songs in my playlist and now I got 60+ songs. but alas this is not selected. but nehmai ’cause I sent in another work. :P

anyway, just wanna say that Im pretty excited ’bout this year’s collected works. especially ’cause most of this year’s committees are my friends. :)

love,
Ruo Ling.

10.05.2013

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Ann. /hyperventilates/

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仓颉. man I *love* this.

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and this is so cute!

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man-made stars. :)

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you know I purposely went to dig out my blue light saber. mana tau the ones they are selling can change colour wan! Ah Xin you have to tell us the secret behind this!

ok la since I showed you the pictures of the airplane I boarded now here Im showing you guys the Noah’s Ark. quality not so good ’cause iPhone only what do you expect? I tell you you can never regret going to this concert. except if your boyfriend dont let you shout. hahaha! hmm looks like fact #90 still remains. :D

love,
Ruo Ling.

07.05.2013

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so here’s some of my favourite corners in my 16 by 8 room. just a typical teenager room. guitars, CD (trying to make it to CDs, :P), camera, computer stuffs, books and messiness. Ive been making changes to my room since like last December. hung my keychains, put my photos up, look for boxes for storage, etc. but it’s never enough. grah! Ive always wanted to make my room nice and comfortable, so here’s some changes Im gonna tryna make:

#1 change white sheets – mom says my room will look like a hospital. oh well.

#2 hang my guitar up – gonna drill again, heartache.

#3 look for something firmer than polystyrene to hang my keychains – prolly wood, drill drill. ah.

#4 add a shelf – been scratching my head for quite some time now. dunno how can I put my things nicely. hmm.

#5 fairy lights! – so my room will become more dreamy. haha.

hmm that’s all I can think right now. what do you think? I really cant wait for SPM to go over so I can trash out half the stuffs in my room. :D

love,
Ruo Ling.